Monthly Archives: August 2016

Rediscovering Reading

I picked up my reading again. This is such a big deal! After going through a rigorous literary course for six years, the last thing I would have picked would be a book no matter how light the reading would be. This, coupled with settling into the job market, and going through the first years of my teaching career meant I had such workload that I could barely cope.
In addition the digital world namely social media and movies have completely disrupted my reading to a point where I have repeatedly wished that I was 15 years old again spending all my time buried in a thriller and dodging my Mum to avoid being given house hold chores.
I made drastic changes in my life this July, or rather I was thrust into an emotional turmoil early in July that neccesiated that I immerse myself into reading in order to cope.
I picked a book that I had picked up early in February but could not progress through it then.
But nhen I picked this particular book last month I not only discovered my love for reading but I also managed to channel all that emotional turmoil into reading this amazing book.
My reading is usually the fast type so within three days I had finished the book and I picked a lesser emotional one and finished it within two days. 
This post isn’t about the number of books I have devoured so far but about my rekindled love for reading and also a snippet into a review I intend to do on that one amazing book that brought the awesomeness of reading back into my life.
This discovery taught me a very key lesson about reading, that it can get me through an immerse emotional turmoil, and the more affecting the book, the more effective it is. Let me explain: in July my two year relationship went kaboom.That threw me into a very intense emotional turmoil and  luckly I picked up Markus Zusaks The book Thief. Halfway through the over 600 pages, I knew I was halfway through my heart break. That book made me forget about my pain for it deals with so much pain that we humans inflict on our fellow humans. That is all I will say about the book for now.

Broken hearts

Every woman knows when she has met that one man who will leave her with the broken pieces of her heart clutched in her hands. And I am no exception.
As this year descends in its last lap dance, I am left grappling with the uncertainty of my life, my hopes and my aspirations. I find myself
standing at a crossroad wondering which road to take: the less travelled or the familiar beaten up road.
For the last two years, my life has been quite simple, split between work, my extended family and my boyfriend, squeezing time between  these three has been a huge challenge coupled with working away from the capital city where he resides and a very hectic work schedule for both of us.
Now all that has been upset and I tell you it is not pleasant.  Relationships aren’t easy and I am not an easy person to be with. They have always been hard nuts for me to crack. I have never gotten the hang of it really.
It is usually ‘you are too much of a woman’ or ‘ too questioning’ or ‘ too critical’ or ‘too proud’! And of course  the moments where you are left hanging without knowing what it is that you never did wrong!
So this time round, I am left holding the broken pieces of my heart and the added mystery of not knowing what it is that I did wrong.
I am very sure that by the time the year rolls around to the last month I will have figured out how to mend my broken heart and how to move on.
I would also have to decide whether my studies deserve another try and the direction my not so illustrious career should take. Its not really easy to make a life altering decision in the  aftermath of a break up but I will get round to it..eventually that is!
Now if you know how to make a relationship a success, enlighten me in the comments section.